(written Sunday, Aug 6, 2006)
A couple months ago, I wrote this post about sleep issues.
It appears there is another sleep issue afoot: I'm having trouble going to sleep. The completely opposite spectrum to that last post.
I just can't go to sleep. I do eventually, but not until 1, 2 and sometimes 3 in the morning and after much tossing and turning. I think as I'm laying there trying to sleep: 'I'd like a snack', or 'Goddamn it, I have to go to the bathroom', or 'I have to write something down', or(more commonly) 'I just don't want to go to sleep'.
I can't even bring myself to take a nap with my daughter, eventhough it would be the sane thing to do, as my body screams !Sleep!
I just can't do it.
She naps as I write this. Which means, obviously, I am not napping.
Could this be a psychological thing? Perhaps. What isn't these days?
Perhaps it is just the weather. Doubt that one a bit, though it has been hot....
This seems to run in cycles: sleeping at 7 p.m. and practically not sleeping at all.
Is it just the cycle of a mother, or am I reading too much into things?
Am I asking too many questions?